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WHAT IS SO WRONG WITH ME

This is like my personal notes, like i dont even care if people do see this but im not sure that you all really that care about my life. 

So recently i've been thinking a lot, that i have to be independent and have to be succeed, so i need to graduate just good and learn so damn hard!! I need to produce my own money, be fricking rich, live with it, charity half of my money away, and grow up with animals (such as cats, dogs, hamsters, birds, fishes, etc) and family (dad mom brothers) .
Sounds weird, but that's like my life-goal. 
Because i cant see myself dating with someone and live with them? I've been single my wholeeee life (not really tho? Lol), and recently there is no one that catches my eyes (/heart?) and there is no one that hitting me. 
AND IT MAKES ME WONDER 
What's so wrong about me? 
What on EARTH IS SO WRROOONG ABOUT MEH  wHY IS NOBODY GIVING ME SIGN THAT THEY LIKE ME OR SUCH WHAT IS SO DAMN WRONG WITH ME MA
Inner me: Okay; lemme give your list of flaws
  1. Im ugly
  2. Im not talking a lot--seems like people might misunderstand my silence that im making lines between me and them 
  3. Im ugly because i know it matters. Thats why im still single
  4. I love cats and kdramas better than people, 
  5. Im not too good with details, never knew someone's my classmate til we talk lmao 
  6. Usually i avoid eye contacts because it bothers me 
  7. I keep my head down when walking so that i dont have to greet someone i dont really know but I know(??)
  8. Im too proud of myself; sometimes i think it seems like i can live just by all myself (this is my worst personality so.) 
  9. I have acnes and blemishes on my face 
  10. Indonesian tend to like those who has white skin, i dont have it
  11. Im not so active on social medias such as line, im a passive on groups (they call me as a sider, whatever it is) so you wont see me a lot on line/such
  12. My nose is too big i CAN EVEN PICK MY NOSE WITH MY INDEX FINGER LMAO BISS 
  13. The only social media i like is 9gag (and twitter when it comes to fangirling and infos) 
  14. Im too weird
  15. People see me as boring
  16. I cant joke a lot, my ability to socialize cant reach that level of joking so i only laugh 
  17. Im ugly, again. 
  18. I only care about myself (but anyway i care about what im doing so i dont hurt people's feeling?? Im a F type so it's what it is) 
  19. I like my home better than any other places
  20. I dont socialize well
  21. I dont know what to say if people talk to me: therefore, again, boring
  22. AND SO ON I HAVE COUNTLESS NOTES OF MY FLAWS 

but anyway, wHAT IS SO WRONG WITH ME WHY IS NOBODY EVER HITTING ON ME LIKE 'HEY BABE LET'S CHILL AND EAT PISANG IJO TOGETHER' 

No im not that lonely, im fine, it's just i want to know what's wrong with me. And if i know.... i wont change it anyway._. I just want to know and to find reason to why am i single lmao 

Okay, my plan is set. Im going to be a rich woman with lots of animals. Sbskskdb

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